09ISTHETIME

Ok buddies I FINALY hit my mini goal of 191 woohoo!!!  I have been on W.W. for 13 weeks and have lost 13 pounds.  I will take it!!!! 

I have to admit that I had a horrible day yesterday though.  I can’t find a summer job(i’m off for the summer) and I think it’s realy getting to me!  I about 900 cal. worth of a frozen pizza…no good!!!!  I knew I was going to feel bad after I ate it but I did it anyways!  UH, sometimes I get so mad at myself!!!!  I think alot of it has to do with my ex.  I sometimes still get sad (it’s been a year) that he didn’t want to marry me.  I guess sometimes I feel like I will never be good enough for anyone.  When I was smaller, I still felt fat and self consious.  I want this time to be differant.  I want my outside to match my inside.  I remember going to Hawaii and I was probably @ 150 (i’m 5′7) and I was still so embarrased to be seen in a one piece bathing suit.  I remember my uncle saying ohh give that food to megan she will eat anything.  I remember thinking God if only I was skinny no one would say anything to me!  Thing was I was at a pretty healthy weight then.  A weight I would die to be at now! 

I think it’s becuase my sister is SOOOOOOO skinney!  She’s like 5′9 and weight @ 130.  So everyones always telling her to eat a cheeseburger so she doesn’t blow away.  I just wish I could be happy and celebrating the fact that I have lost 15 pounds.  I am more proud of the fact that I have lost 13 in 13 weeks.  The good old fashioned healthy way.  But the thing is I know if I don’t get my attitude straight I will be right back where I started. 

Sorry for rambling!!! I’m done now=)  Lets have a GREAT weekend buddies!!!!

You hear so much on T.V.  that people who are overweight have “emotional issues” that they have to deal with before they can be successful at weight loss.  I wonder if this is true!  I would think some are overweight because of the lifestyle they live.  I don’t think I have figured out WHY I am overweight.  I wonder WHY people seem to loose weight so much faster then me.  I wonder WHY I loose a couple pounds and then gain a few back.  If I keep putting my self back where I started, why even bother in the first place.

So I am asking all of you buddies, why do you think you are/were overweight?