3 a.m. and I can’t sleep
GRRRR!!!! It’s 3am and I can’t sleep!!! Just coming back from a week off (school schedule) and I have to be at work at 730! Second night in a row of no sleep=( I feel so anxsious (no idea how to spell!) alot of the time!!! I think it is because of the possible lay off at my work. I am a technicaly a teachers assistant even though I haven’t been in the classroom for the past two years (which is what I signed up for!) and I work my butt off, I go above and beyond all the time. Here to find out that that does not matter, they just go by the last date of hire, not on merit at all!! Makes me so mad that some people do nothing and are gaurenteed a job. My boss says this is how the union does it….I’m like but were not in a union!!! GRRRRR ok enough about that=)
Also all my friends are talking about their trip over memorial day to put in bay….I can’t go cause I don’t have the funds. I know I am being a big cry baby, but I have to be happy 4 them and need to get it out somewhere so I don’t eat a gallon of ice cream! lol.
Ok and just one more thing….I can’t seem to break away from the ex….sliped up big time with him sat. night. grrr oh well. He has made it perfectly clear that he does not ever want to get married or live together, but yet he still wants to hang out all of the time. He gives me money to help pay my rent, takes me out to dinner ext. And I know what all of you are thinking that I am a booty call, and if I was then our whole situation would make sense to me! But we have done it ONE time in the past year we have been broken up, and that’s only becuase I crawled in bed with him! Pathetic I know I am!!!!!! Oh girls, why can’t life just be easy??
Ok ok, done with my b*tching for the night! I’m sorry that this wasn’t about weight, I hope no one is offended, I just needed to get that off my chest. Is it ok to blog on here about other things? I hope so=) But…on a bright side I have just shared my feelings, instead of stuffing my face, which is what I really really really feel like doing right now!!! Thank you all for listening, you guys are the best!
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anytime that is what we are here for if it stops you from eating than it is a good thing. sorry you do not have the money to go on your trip..ask the ex to fund it …just joking hang in there. you can do it !!!
YES! It is absolutely okay to blog about whatever you want to! Sorry to hear about the job
I hope it works out for you! I hear you about the friends trip and not having money. I have no money too and my friends always invite me to things and sometimes they offer to pay for me since I am poor and they want me to be there. I have to say no alot so they pay sometimes. I am over feeling badly about it. I have an ex that still gives me money too that I am also not sexually active with. I am the one who broke up with him and kicked him out of my house but I guess he feels bad for the way he behaved (really bad temper) that he still helps me out. I wonder sometimes if my family thinks I sleep with him since they know he gives me money but I am over caring what they think and know how our relationship, or lack there of, really is. We werent even sleeping together when he was still living here, that was part of the problem 
LOL. I hope you are able to get a good night’s sleep tonight buddy.